"The nice part of being a pessimistic is that you're constantly being either proven right or pleasantly surprised" Qouting from a senior.

the line went through my head as i was heading for tuition last night. indeed, i was pleasantly surprised. by the end of the 1.5hour, i went home light-hearted, smiling and totally amused with myself.

i was having the blues since sunday. one moment, i was laughing along at my student's hilarious actions of covering his answer and insisting that his chemical equation is balanced and forbids me from correcting him. everytime i started explaining a new concept to him, he "oh...., oh...". those simple exclaimation of understanding is all that lightened up my days as a tuition teacher. its as if i am better than his school teacher. hee. sorry peeps out there who are teachers. i know you guys are better, just that students wanting tuition usually turns up in a class taught by otherwise lazy teachers. the thing is, i was laughing along with him all till the end of the class, got out of the house expecting to see my dad there to fetch me to the next session as promised. but well, i got "planed" again.

got to class late, not a good sign, i don't like to be late. little brother started getting restless the moment he sat down in front of me. after half the class, he totally lost concentration that i had to end the class early let him rest and continue with his brother. sigh. i suddenly lost all my motivation. and it does not help that i've already had a full fledge 6.5hours of teaching. i don't think even full time teachers teach continuous for such long hours. and i don't feel appreciated at all.

the thing is. its just the day after teachers day. its teachers day during the weekend and i've a total of 4 sessions and i've no presents at all. argh!!!!!! well, what to expect when its teenagers that you're teaching. i don't remember giving present to my teacher when i was in jc. but not even simple greetings!!! i was so deprived that i actually jokingly demanded a present from the kid last night. haha. he so paisei. but i only meant as joke.

back to being "planed". i was deprived of my teacher's day celebration. my dad forgot about me and my lunch cause he was looking at the accident that happened on the highway in front of my block. (braddell road accident featured in the papers). my collegue totally forgot about our appointment, or rather he cancelled it because he arranged to play mahjong during his working hours.

and recently i've declared to myself. and now to all my dear friends. i'm free!!! i mean, i'm free from troubles with that stupid idiotic person. 我看开了，天涯何处无芳草，whats more, he's totally off the league, he was not even near the standard at all. so yup. no more troubles for me.
tomorrow will be seeing him first time since i've came to that decision. i'll hold on to that thought dearly.